music: puffy ami yumi - mother
mood: nostalgic


damn, i miss blogging here. somehow the format and everything makes a difference, i dont know. i guess blogging frequently and blogging once in a blue moon gives a totally different feel to your entries. like now it'd be like writing to a 久しぶり の 友達... haha kinda weird to combine english with japanese.

school's been okay. there's definitely a different feel from last year, because everyone around me is different, except for ruben and dorothy. kind of a distant feel. but みんな優しですね。can feel their nice-ness, but its just different. not a bad kind of different, just different.

apparently im handling this change pretty okay. used to be really affected by drastic changes in my surroundings. maybe this time its more gradual? i saw it coming? it hasnt occurred to me yet? or am i just immune to it all already?

each day passes by, without me looking forward to the next day, or even dreading the next day. i guess my take towards everyday has become kinda like when you say 'no comment'.

i remember mentioning this before, because its such a powerful statement, something along the lines of, how i wished i could feel the same way like when i just entered lasalle. perpetual happiness. due to liberation from the escapism of my life before that? because i wanted to move on so much? because i wanted to learn new things, meet new people to love, get a new headstart? or because i looked forward to every next day? because i wanted to improve myself?

anyway my point is, its all a bit different now. is this me escaping from a change again? by not facing it?